Thursday, April 14, 2016

This Is the Day

Who knows a thing or two about midlife crisis? Surely, not I! I think I'm in the middle of one, but not quite sure if my age fits the bill.  

Sitting in my cube for the last five hours or so, playing with my phone, and checking outlook hoping to God somebody would email me, is not my idea of working. This has been a regular occurrence for the last couple of weeks. I feel guilty for getting paid doing nothing.  At the same time, it's driving me insane being idle. I don't know if I can stand another week like this! And to think, this is our busy season!

I am facing a crossroad in my life.  One that I am forced to face because of idle days.  Roads that lead to uncertainties. It scares me thinking about it. I have pondered upon the idea of going back to my old workplace.  I was happy there. Convenient. Familiar. It was nowhere near perfect. But I mattered. My work had meaning.  But is that really an option?  

For now, I am grateful because I am blessed. But this day made me realize - I HAD it good.


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