Friday, April 25, 2008

Safe House

TOP SECRET

Orders
  • Read
  • Memorize
  • Eat
  • and...
    • Sip Surreptitiously
    • "Do" Lunch
    • Wine and Dine
    • Dance
    • Throw a Party/Hold an Event
    • Hail a Chief
    • License her to Thrill
    • Visit Sneaky Pete
    • Play Black-Jack
    • Join the VIO's
    • Experience The Underground
    • Don't Worry
    • Be Happy and
    • Have Fun...
....where the SECRET sip
the FURTIVE flirt and
the COVERT caper

OUR
SECRET
IS
SERVICE


This is quoted from the napkin I took from the restaurant. We had dinner there last night. Can't say much. It's a secret place. Food was yummy and the atmosphere was fun. Thanks, Rick for taking me to such a unique restaurant. *wink*

Thursday, April 24, 2008

A Lazy Day

A lazy day in the world of Mrs. Schneider...

It's half past ten in the morning and i am still in my pajamas. A cup of coffee beside me. Contemplating on what i would do today.

I am in a strange land called Milwaukee. A big city with tall buildings and a very complicated highway system. I think there's five levels in one of their overpass/flyovers. Scary. I don't think i'll be able to drive here. But public transportation is readily available. So, going around shouldn't be a problem. There's a mall a couple of blocks from here. I'm thinking I should walk there and spend some $$, but i think it's in the 50's out there and later today, it's going to rain. Although i really want to go shopping. Need spring and summer clothes for work. I have decided not to wear the uniform at BOI. I really want to start looking nice that way i'll feel good about myself. Confidence makes me happy. Compliments makes me happy. Haven't been feeling pretty lately, specially with the zits on my face, my bulging tummy and the crappy weather. Thank God winter is finally over and for the new trend in tops! Helps hide the unsightly! My face has been so bad lately. I think it's from that health supplement i have been taking. It's called superhero, it really helped my monthly cycle. But it's wreaking havocs on my skin. Hopefully the dermatologist will be able to help and so i can still take my superhero.

The hotel room is really nice. That's why i don't feel the urge to go somewhere else. I have a laptop with internet connection, so it's really not a biggie if i just stay here. It's nice to be alone and think about life sometimes. Not have any plans or worries. Life has been so hectic lately. My days is consumed with work. Day and night I am working. I feel like I abandoned Rick. But he has been so understanding when i have to go fill-in for someone. The money is nice. Specially with the economy getting worse everyday. Makes you wonder what will happen tomorrow... I watch cartoons to escape reality. Rick likes to watch the news. No wonder he's a nervous wreck! I'd rather not know what's going on and live life now and not worry about tomorrow. Now, I have a job, a husband, we can afford groceries and a little luxury. I'd rather savor what's going on NOW in my life, rather than worry about tomorrow. I strongly believe that worrying will rob you of the good things that's in front of you everyday, you'll fail to recognize the blessings, the grace and love. I'd rather be thankful, for i was given another day, to see the beauty of God's creation, to experience life and the ability to dream some more. Yes, life IS stressful. But worrying and complaining will not solve any problem. It's not gonna make life any better.

Live... Love... Laugh... For today might be your last and you failed to make a difference. You failed to enjoy it. There's no rewind or fast forward. You only have now! I don't mean to lecture. I just get carried away sometimes. I like to think when i am alone. Helps me be grateful for the wonderful life i have. It's not perfect. And i don't expect it to be.




Saturday, April 12, 2008

The Last Lecture

I watched a show called Primetime last Wednesday. They had a special on the author of the book called "The Last Lecture". The author was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and was given 6 months to live. He's a professor in one of the universities here in the US and he gave this very famous "last lecture". You can see clips of this lecture on youtube. Apparently, people who watched and listened to his lecture was inspired by his life that they decided to changed their lives as well. I haven't really had the chance to watch the full clip, but saw bits and pieces of it that night. His line that stuck to my head to this day is "we cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand." Wish it was that easy to look at bad situations and see something good in them. It is not. We mostly see it as bad and further thinking makes it worse. It's basically the same principle as looking at the glass of water half empty or half full. I try to be optimistic most of the time. But there are just days when I wish I can pack my bags and give up.

I really should try to do more with my life. Become somebody rather than a nobody. I wanna make a difference. I wanna be a blessing. I want to be remembered and loved by a lot of people. How and where to start, I don't know... But it's nice to dream. I know an opportunity will present itself someday. God has great plans for all of us.

A line from our high school graduation song:
"Lord, here I am, send me..."