Friday, April 15, 2016

Life is Good

How often do we look at the good things in our lives? Why do we always focus on the bad? I guess it's human nature. We always dwell on the negative and forget to see the goodness and beauty of it all.  I am not telling you anything that you don't already know. We all are guilty of this. But how do we change it? How do we get past the negative vibe?

I seem to be full of questions today. I guess being idle does that to you. Makes you ponder. I wish things were different today. I wish there's an undo button in life. But there's none. The sad reality of life is, we have to live with the choices we made.  Good or bad. Big or small. The choices we make everyday is part of a bigger picture. We just have to patiently wait and see the purpose of it all.  In the meantime, live with that choice. Somehow, it counts!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart 
and lean not on your own understanding. 

Proverbs 3:5

Thursday, April 14, 2016

This Is the Day

Who knows a thing or two about midlife crisis? Surely, not I! I think I'm in the middle of one, but not quite sure if my age fits the bill.  

Sitting in my cube for the last five hours or so, playing with my phone, and checking outlook hoping to God somebody would email me, is not my idea of working. This has been a regular occurrence for the last couple of weeks. I feel guilty for getting paid doing nothing.  At the same time, it's driving me insane being idle. I don't know if I can stand another week like this! And to think, this is our busy season!

I am facing a crossroad in my life.  One that I am forced to face because of idle days.  Roads that lead to uncertainties. It scares me thinking about it. I have pondered upon the idea of going back to my old workplace.  I was happy there. Convenient. Familiar. It was nowhere near perfect. But I mattered. My work had meaning.  But is that really an option?  

For now, I am grateful because I am blessed. But this day made me realize - I HAD it good.