Sunday, March 22, 2009

Trust

Trust. Such a strong word. It's easy to earn it. But once you lose it, it's hard to gain it back.

It's typical for me to be shy and timid when I just met somebody. But once I warm up to you... I open my heart and let you in. I made that mistake with a co-worker. I trusted her with my aches, my dreams, my regrets and aspirations. Yesterday I found out from a mutual acquaintance how she has been talking about me behind my back. Good or bad it doesn't matter anymore. Trust has been broken. She lost a friend in me. How awful it felt when I found out about it. It's not something I would wish on anyone. So I am not going to tell her what I have heard. From now on, i'll just keep my thoughts to myself.

A lesson has been learned from this experience. This morning I woke up with a renewed vow. Trust no one but your best friend. I'm lucky to have found that in my family and a few Filipino friends. It'll be a while or perhaps never, will I ever trust another American soul to be my friend.

Trust. Guide it with your heart.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Birthday Wish


It's Rick's birthday again! No plans yet! I really wanted to throw him a party but he repeatedly refused despite my constant nagging. We are not anti-social, we love our friends and would want to spend time with them. But I guess, when you are in pain, you don't really feel like hanging out with a bunch of people. So I gave him what he wanted. Peace and quiet. And a camera to rekindle his love for photography. Hopefully he'll figure out the controls and functions. It is kind of complicated.

Nothing is planned so far. Church then brunch then whatever. He wants to barbecue a rack of ribs but let's see if all the snow has disappeared from the weekend's warm spell. If not, then off to a fancy restaurant! McDonald's perhaps? My treat! :)



To my Richard,

Wishing you promising years ahead.
Good fortune, good health, lots of travel and love.
Let's explore the world together and have fun!

I love you and I love my life with you.


Happy birthday, sweetheart...

xoxo


I Can't Drive 55


I Cant Drive 55 - Sammy Hagar