Trust. Such a strong word. It's easy to earn it. But once you lose it, it's hard to gain it back.
It's typical for me to be shy and timid when I just met somebody. But once I warm up to you... I open my heart and let you in. I made that mistake with a co-worker. I trusted her with my aches, my dreams, my regrets and aspirations. Yesterday I found out from a mutual acquaintance how she has been talking about me behind my back. Good or bad it doesn't matter anymore. Trust has been broken. She lost a friend in me. How awful it felt when I found out about it. It's not something I would wish on anyone. So I am not going to tell her what I have heard. From now on, i'll just keep my thoughts to myself.
A lesson has been learned from this experience. This morning I woke up with a renewed vow. Trust no one but your best friend. I'm lucky to have found that in my family and a few Filipino friends. It'll be a while or perhaps never, will I ever trust another American soul to be my friend.
Trust. Guide it with your heart.
It's typical for me to be shy and timid when I just met somebody. But once I warm up to you... I open my heart and let you in. I made that mistake with a co-worker. I trusted her with my aches, my dreams, my regrets and aspirations. Yesterday I found out from a mutual acquaintance how she has been talking about me behind my back. Good or bad it doesn't matter anymore. Trust has been broken. She lost a friend in me. How awful it felt when I found out about it. It's not something I would wish on anyone. So I am not going to tell her what I have heard. From now on, i'll just keep my thoughts to myself.
A lesson has been learned from this experience. This morning I woke up with a renewed vow. Trust no one but your best friend. I'm lucky to have found that in my family and a few Filipino friends. It'll be a while or perhaps never, will I ever trust another American soul to be my friend.
Trust. Guide it with your heart.
5 comments:
luoy sad.. tsk tsk
u shouldve told her "gwapa ka ha? ha? ha?" hehe. ive gotten tired of people like that. insecure man gud na sila joy thats why... kay ikaw u know what u want and yet sila gubot pa sa lukot! hehe
ick. i know how you feel. hate that when that happens.
not your loss joy, but hers.
i think it's good that you found her true color, she doesn't deserve your friendship.
thank you for the kind thoughts. she did lose a friend in me. but i found out i have other friends worth keeping. even if they're americans. :)
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